On Becoming Social (Again) After Giving Up Alcohol

“If alcohol was the never-ending circular breath that fueled your social life, its absence is going to have an impact, whether it’s at a work happy hour, a night out with friends, or a family holiday get-together.”

Writer Jacob Barron explores the process of rediscovering who you are as a social entity after giving up alcohol.

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As our kids dug holes, flew kites and ate sand, a close friend paused at a point in our conversation, sidled a little closer to me on our shared towel and lowered his voice a bit while leveling his eyes. “How are you?” he asked. Emphasis his. 

This was the first time I had seen this specific friend in-person since very publicly observing the one-year anniversary of my sobriety on Facebook and Instagram. He omitted the words, but what he was actually asking was, “How is living life now that you’re sober?” 

In this moment the question might’ve been awkward, but it wasn’t. I felt good, and I was among friends—friends who knew me well before I got clean, and, gratefully, who I love, and who I know love me back. Nothing said on that towel was going to change that fact.

We were also on a beach and I was drinking a very cold lemon La Croix. Our kids were meeting and enjoying each other’s company for the first time. The sun was hot, but the water cold. I had applied sunscreen to my children in such a way that the chances of a week-ruining burn were blessedly remote. The moment’s simple pleasures were a balm to my wobbling soul.

That he knew about my sobriety also helped prevent any awkwardness; I didn’t have to explain the bigger details to him. He was already familiar. 

But the most important factor buoying my comfort level in that moment was the fact that, sixteen months into my sobriety, I could honestly say I had reached a point where I felt comfortable with myself and with who I was as a sober social being. 

 

A Social Lubricant

There are lots of reasons—both chemical and cultural—why alcohol is inextricably linked to social behavior. Ads for alcohol (on which $2 billion are spent annually in the U.S. alone) don’t instruct consumers to drink their products at home, alone, preferably in the basement and in secret; the ads aspire to help drinkers “make it count,” where “it” might be a night out with friends, the drink itself or life as a whole. The message is always tied to how this particular beverage is a prerequisite for creating something memorable shared between you and others. It invites audiences to be a part of something, even though—let’s be honest—drinking alone and in secret is how a lot of alcohol  gets consumed. 

Evolutionarily speaking, we should probably be grateful for alcohol’s undeniable social benefits; the drunk apes beat the sober ones after all.(1) Alcohol erodes barriers to conversations and creates a shortcut to connection and collaboration. In the past, this meant, “If we work together, we can hunt and gather more than we would otherwise.” Today it might be, “Let’s go get pizza after this!” but the point is all the same—alcohol reduces the distance between an idea and collective action on that idea.

For these reasons, it’s easy to see why a lot of people might feel a bit lost when they’re first out in public after choosing sobriety. If alcohol was the never-ending circular breath that fueled your social life, its absence is going to have an impact, whether it’s at a work happy hour, a night out with friends, or a family holiday get-together. 

Every reason for not drinking is valid, but the specific details of every new non-drinker’s journey toward a new social self will vary widely according to their personality type, their friends’ and family’s level of support or opinions, and their own reasons for getting sober in the first place. The journey of an alcoholic emerging from the ashes of rock bottom to a new social standard will look different than that of someone who is laying off booze for the weekend.

Still, there are similarities in these journeys—recognizable phases on the path of the newly sober. Using my own unscientific experience, I’ve identified four of these phases: Paralysis, Imitation, Actual Normality and the Promised Land.

 

Phase 1: Paralysis

While the road to comfortable sobriety might be long, the effects of alcohol’s absence can be felt immediately, and they go well beyond the physical symptoms of chemical withdrawal. In many cases, drinkers have organized their brains in such a way that the drinking is what made them normal. As a viral tweet once put it, “If you have anxiety, the first two drinks don’t count, that’s just you becoming a normal person.” When those two drinks are no longer a part of the equation, there’s a chance that the jarring switch from social interactions with alcohol to social interactions without can cause a form of social whiplash.

It’s understandable, then, for the newly-sober to clam up in social situations, or to take steps to avoid them entirely. I remember feeling frozen in those early days, weighed down by a mixture of shame, uncertainty and the nagging question of who I was now. In the earliest days of sobriety, the biggest, most important task is simply accumulating more days of sobriety; adding them to the pile, one day at a time. Worrying about being suitably social, or funny, or charming is secondary. 

Those early days can feel like sneaking through the woods being stalked by a wild animal; if you move, it could see you and take you down, so you freeze in place and hold your breath until it’s gone. Paralysis makes sense at the beginning—it’s your brain’s way of keeping you safe while you readjust. It isn’t something to be ashamed of.

 

Phase 2: Imitation (also known as Fool’s Normality)

Once a newly-sober person feels stable enough to take some social chances, they might settle into a new phase where they imitate their drinking selves, just without alcohol. This period feels an awful lot like normality. You’ll think, “I’m the person I was before, just dealcoholized by reverse osmosis. Identical in taste and flavor, but brought down to 0.0%. No one will be able to tell the difference.”

While this might be true, alcoholics can be prone to seeing their behavior through a more positive filter than reality would dictate, and it takes a while for these two things to realign. Recalibrating takes time, and that’s okay.

In my case, this gap between how I thought I was doing, and how I was actually doing was pointed out to me by my wife after a Halloween party we held in our backyard, nearly eight months after I got sober. “Why were you being so weird at the party the other day?” she asked, never one to mince words. I was taken aback by the question. In my memory I was the consummate host; I ensured other guests were having a good time and politely enjoyed conversations with almost everyone, dropping in jokes here and there to keep things lively; a picture-perfect fall evening. In reality, my timing was off, my disposition was awkward and I was apparently making people a little less comfortable, not more. 

In short, I had remembered something more positively than it actually was. I had been here before.

Trying to model your post-alcohol social self on your pre-sobriety social self makes sense on paper. After all it’s likely the only social self you’ve ever known. Why not just copy that and call it a day? I was good at this beforehand, and if I just do what I did before, but without alcohol, I can be good at it again.

 

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Phase 3: Actual Normality

But the truth is that you probably weren’t very good at it beforehand. 

When I was drinking I presented myself as the bar mayor—the social nucleus of whatever room I was in; someone who always wanted to take things to the next level, because that was what it meant to have fun and enjoy life. In reality, and especially toward the end of my drinking life, I was actually just the royal fool. It wasn’t cute to always order a double, or to always be the one to suggest that now was an appropriate time for shots. What I remembered in the early light of morning as being memorably social, or funny or fun, was, in reality, inappropriate at best and sad at worst. 

Even those new non-drinkers that weren’t town drunks will have to confront the fact that their new social selves will necessarily be different than what they were before. They might give up on being the clown, and cut a less ostentatious, but still enjoyable social figure. They might want to be funnier, or be different than they’ve ever been in their social lives, landing on something radically different than just a virgin version of their drinking social self.

The important thing to know is that you are the one who gets to choose what goes and what stays when you decide to clean house; whatever decisions you make on this front will comprise your new normal social self. For alcoholics, this can be the first meaningful thing they realize is totally in their control. It doesn’t depend on anyone or anything else—your social self is something you get to create and alter so that it suits you best. 

 

Phase 4: The Promised Land 

Many who eventually stop drinking alcohol delay their decision to get sober because they fear the cure will be worse than the disease—that alcohol is a necessary part of a fun and happy and productive life, and that removing it would doom them to boredom. 

It’s impossible to see when you’re not in it, but one of the many things getting clean allows a person to do is to appreciate the world in a way that’s more intense and real than they might’ve been able to notice before. It sounds trite, but colors are brighter, rest is more satisfying, things taste better. Even sitting—yes just the act of sitting—got better for me after I got clean. My un-addled brain began to notice new details about things that I previously thought I knew a lot about. And so it is in the development of a new social self; you eventually reach a place that seems unfamiliar, take a look around, and realize that it’s much better and more authentic than what you had previously been able to imagine. 

This takes time. But, when it happens, it will be something that you created yourself, and that you can be proud of. Happily, it’s also something that other people can recognize and enjoy too.

 

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I eventually gave my friend a good answer. I felt myself open up like a book to him for a minute, and then the conversation proceeded along like a leaf on a river and we went back to being dads again. There was still plenty of air in the room to talk about other things—the important and the not-so-important, the trivial and the serious—and as the question was answered and quickly faded into one memory out of a trip with thousands of special moments, I took stock of where I was, and how far I had come. Pretty far, it turned out. You’ll feel the same way too, whenever you get there.

 
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Footnotes: 

(1) Dudley, Robert and Aeon, “How the Drunken Monkey Hypothesis explains our taste for alcohol,” The Atlantic, December 19, 2016

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